Praying to the dark

“I fell in love when I was seventeen… with God. A foolish girl with romantic notions about the life of a religious. But my love was passionate. Over the years my feelings have changed, He’s disappointed me, ignored me. We’ve settled into a relationship of peaceful indifference. The old husband and wife that sit side by side on the sofa but rarely speak” – Quote from the movie “The Painted Veil”

The words of an elderly Nun that had dedicated her life to working in a orphanage in China during a cholera outbreak. I’ve never forgotten this scene.

Next time you go to restaurant look around at the different couples there. Do you see a couple that sit and eat in silence? You might see a couple sitting together talking, hanging on each others words. Chances are today you’ll see two people sitting together and both of them will be talking to someone else on their cell phones.

I hardly know what to pray for anymore. My one-dimensional prayer life is getting old. I’m like the old nun, I still know He’s there but I sit silent, there’s no pressure to say anything and He doesn’t say anything to me. I don’t think it’s a good thing, I think I’ve reached a point where I need to take a new step if I’m going to experience a deeper level of communication.

Carl Sagan, when speaking about other dimensions, imagined that if a creature from another dimension wanted to speak to us it would actually sound as if their voice was coming from inside of us. It’s pretty difficult to ignore all the other distractions, stop for a moment and really listen.

“I turn it up inside my head
When I’m asleep on my bed

They try to say there is no God

People praying to the dark”
- Fallout, Bride